Long story but i had to vent. No one to talk to. This past Saturday i made an appointment with my gyn to discuss <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> options and to obtain a referral. Since i woke up i wasn’t in the mood because i just got a bunch of feelings. I feel worthless, i feel ashamed, i feel embarrassed, i feel like less of a woman. I feel like my partner is not really concern wether this happens or not because he has two kids. Even after all those feeling i got up and started to get ready for this appointment. I had told my boyfriend a few days before if he wanted to come. He agreed but i felt like if he didn’t remember i want going to wake him up. Anyways he got up and asked me where i was going and i told him to the doctors appointment and he said “oh shit i forgot wait for me”. So that made me feel like shit even more. Well we get in the car drive to the doctors office. He wasn’t there, they stated they sent out a cancellation text to cancel because he had to go into emergency surgery. I didn’t see the text because it was filtered to my unknown numbers. After all that i just felt like maybe this is not even for me either. Maybe im really not meant to be a mother and to too it off my sister in law gives birth on Sunday and her baby is beautiful and i cant stop being jealous of her. God bless all those woman who can conceive with no problems i only wish that was my case.