Doctors want me to go to 39 weeks after having a stillbirth

Hi ,

I am pregnant with my 2nd baby (17weeks) .

My first pregnancy was stillbirth after 3 yrs of infertility that baby happened we were so exited our family members and all of us . Everthing was going smoothly till 29 weeks when i was diagnosed with gestational diabetes

My numbers were not crazy high so they put me on diet controlled and at 33 weeks my baby was measuring low percentile so my ob reffered me to mfm . And from then i was monitoered closely twice a week nsts and ultrasound my baby was always measuring low percentile (6 percentile ) and then at 37 weeks 5 days my baby wasnt moving and that happened after 2 days of nst ultrasound and mfm appointment .

i got to the hospital were they told me baby has no heartbeat . And then after 3 days at 38 weeks i had him vaginally 😭 my perfect baby boy .

And now my 2nd baby i am high risk because of my history i changed doctors and now they want me to go till 39 weeks and then get induced i was mad i dont want to to that week again at my first pregnancy my placenta was low weight too that means i have placental insuffiancy and still wont induced me at 36 weeks . There answer to my questions is we will monitor you closely . Wtf i was moitoered closely my first pregnancy and that unthinkable still happened . Seriously whats wrong with ny docs . I am so lost

I want to ask ladies over here if you have been this horrible tragedy like me were you induced early in you next pregnancy or you were left on your own .

I am so so sorry if you have been through this no mama deserves that . You are one strong human being to function everyday while heart aches for your child .😭💔