14 months eating disorder free

I’m posting on here because I’m very private about this aspect of my life and the only people that really know the extent of my history with my eating disorder are my husband and my best friend.

My daughter was born almost 14 months ago. I am very ashamed to admit that after over 10 years of battling both anorexia and bulimia, the battle continued throughout pregnancy. I was tortured by my eating disorder. I confided in my doctor and sought multiple forms of treatment but still could not get a handle on it. I was defeated and so disappointed in myself and overall just exhausted. If the blessing of a baby growing inside of me wasn’t enough to get me to stop then what ever would be? I managed to binge and purge almost daily but despite all of that, God blessed me with a healthy full term pregnancy and my daughter was born.

I am proud to say that since the day she arrived over 13 months ago, I have been free of my eating disorder for the first time in over a decade. My life completely changed. My body was not my own anymore but I fought every negative thought in my head to be where I am now.

I am so thankful that I was able to have a healthy baby despite the hold the eating disorder had over me. Now it is my priority to be healthy for my daughter and to show her how to love yourself and your body.

This may not be the most relevant forum to post, but I hope this encourages and offers hope to anyone battling something that seems impossible to overcome.