Idk what to do I feel like I'm just being ungrateful but I feel so alone and empty when I'm alone...when i was younger i was mentally and physically abused by my real dad (hes in jail now) and I've been diagnosed with anxiety disorder ADHD and ADD ( they are 2 different things) but I just feel alone and like I'm not good enough i.have a boyfriend who I love to the moon and back but i just feel scared and sad when I'm alone to the point where I'm in a call with him even when I sleep I'm scared I don't know what to do I'm not on any medication

And if I try and talk to my parents they dont do anything about it...I've tried