Need advice! Input would be nice

So long story short. I am 30 years old and just had my second child. I had my first daughter exactly 3 weeks after my 18th birthday. I was never a good mom to my first and never bonded with her. My mom stepped in and always raised her. I was always present but went out w friends a lot, and did what most normal teenagers / young adults do. And I was really never a mom or good one at that. I suffered PPD. The guy I had a baby with had another girl pregnant at the same time so you can imagine dealing w something like that as a teen. This time around was so different. Emotionally and mentally I was prepared to love and bond with a child. I was also independent and financially stable. The relationship with my first is so strained tho and she practically hates me (being a teenager added w resentment). I don’t know what to do. She still lives w my mom. I don’t know if I can ever take her. They say bad stuff about me in front of me and then she repeats it to me. For instance today she called me a loser and said I was a bad mom bc I can’t take care of her. Anyone else deal with something similar? I pray one day as she gets older and really starts to mature and understand that we can have a better mother and daughter relationship. I really had no business having a baby that young and this is the very reason why. I really do feel bad that I wasn’t a good mom and I am guilty but I am not a bad mom and I am not a bad personality. She did get the short end of the stick bc I was young