How to deal with gender disappointment

Before anyone says anything we are thrilled and blessed to be having a baby. We will love it regardless. We know there is no changing what we will have or anything. But we want a girl so desperately. I’ve been surrounded by boys my whole life (older brothers, younger brothers, nephews). My partner is in the same boat. Everyone around me is saying I’m having a girl (before I even say what I want) but there is a part of me that feels it will be a boy. And I don’t know how I would react. I’m afraid I wouldn’t react the way I should once we do the gender ultrasound and I’m wondering if there are any other mamas who have felt the same? I want a girl so badly I’m afraid I’ll cry if it’s a boy 😔 there is NOTHING wrong with having a boy and I will love it so much either way but I’m just afraid of my initial reaction if it is.

Editing to add: thank you everyone for your kind words. I know everything will be okay regardless but it is relief to know I am not alone. As for those recommending getting bloodwork done to process privately, we are not going that route. We did not need the NIPT testing and our insurance doesn’t cover it if we wanted it. We’re saving every scrap of money we can for this baby and the online at home blood tests aren’t super expensive but I don’t do well with blood and wouldn’t be able to do it myself. I know that it silly but that is just how I am. My doctor did not offer any other kind of blood test. If there is one through my doctor that isn’t NIPT that I don’t know about I’d be happy to do it otherwise we will stick to ultrasound since our insurance covers those. Thank you so much everyone 🙏🏻