This is embarrassing for me lol and I wish that was clickbait but it’s not. My boyfriend and I were together for only four months before I got pregnant. We really weren’t in a very serious relationship but we were “exclusive”. When I told him I was pregnant I told him he didn’t have to stay with me just because we were having a baby together but he said he wanted to be with me still and he would leave if he didn’t want to be. Our baby is almost 7 months old now and we have such an awkward and weird relationship. I have really bad ppd and I feel terrible 24/7. He works a ton which I’m really grateful for because he’s our only source of income and pays for a nice twin house for us and his job gets our daughter great insurance. But it’s like we’re just friends and not in a relationship. We’ll have sex maybe once every three weeks, if that, and when we do, it just feels like a hookup if that makes sense. Really detached. And after we’ll just either sleep or go back to our own thing as if it never happened lol that probably makes no sense.

I do care about him and I want a more typical relationship with him but I’m so afraid he’ll tell me he wants to split up or he doesn’t feel that way about me. I feel like mentally I couldn’t handle it right now and I’d have nowhere to go and as I have no money of my own. I really don’t know what to do but I think the relationship is causing me a lot of stress and contributing to really low self esteem and feelings of inadequacy.