My mind changes daily

Aee

My mind changes daily, my husband and I want to try... Then we change our mind. I constantly doubt myself as how id be as a mom with 2 kids. (My sons 5.5) and i get so nervous about starting over but then an hour later i have full blown baby fever. 😳 weve been married for a year and id love to see my husband have the experience of having a biological child... Does anyone else go back and forth?