Am I the only one who ever feels like this??????

Do any of you ever pray they God will take the desire away for you to have your own biological children???? We have been TTC for over a year. I’ve had an ectopic and a miscarriage... on some of my tough days I pray that he takes that desire away so all of the negative tests will be easier to deal with and we move on from trying to have our biological child. I know this probably sounds terrible, but I wanted to see if anyone else has ever felt like this. I know that God has a plan but some days are harder than others.