IM GOING TO FLY TO SEE MY EX AS A GRAND GESTURE HELP!

Hi guys, so I need serious advice. I need people to read this post not from a one sided place. So I had a boyfriend of 3 years. I met him in California and he’s from Virginia so he eventually had to move back home so we did distance for over a year and it was hard but distance usually is. I wasn’t naive to him being young and horny and he did try to break it off a couple times because he said he said the distance was putting strain on us and I should have listened but I didn’t. He eventually did end up cheating and I found out because he gave me chlamydia. When I told him he didn’t know he had it obviously and he didn’t lie or deny it. He told me the truth and I was heartbroken of course. I prayed and prayed and healed and I did forgive him and we continued to talk but we weren’t together. Distance wasn’t going to work for us. Then about four months later I decided to try to tall to someone and it wasn’t on purpose but with my luck I found the most awful person I could have and he took advantage of my lonely, vulnerable state. When I say awful I mean he made me swear on the Bible I hadn’t slept with anyone else and then when I asked him he calmy said “yes” and proceeded to tell me he knew I liked him but he had no feelings for me and we weren’t talking even though we were together every day and he always invited me to sleep over and hang out. Also, I never expressed I had any feelings towards him ever. Two weeks later he would tell me he loves me and I don’t say anything back. He would say he was going to take me out on a date and never ever did. He would cum inside me without telling me or after I say no and then he didn’t want to pay for a Plan b and I had to have my friend help me. He did multiple horrible things to me and I stayed because I was attached since he was the second guy I had sex with, I was lonely, and I was just letting this person take advantage and I don’t know why. One last awful thing he did was when he came in me without permission, he didn’t give me a plan b and I didn’t have enough money so I took it a day late and I ended up getting pregnant. I took the pill to get an abortion and during that time I found out he was having a whole other girl seriously and he literally did not care about me. He just wanted the “problem to be taken care of”...as he said. He said he didn’t want to talk to me until the problem was fixed and I was just in a state of shock. So many bad things were happening to me and I didn’t understand why. Through this my ex was always there for me and I finally broke down and wanted to tell him the truth of what was going on because I love him and I trust him to give me guidance. He was very hurt but I just knew I wanted to tell him. Me and the other guy stopped contact and he has tried to reach out but I haven’t at all. I also forgot to mention my ex did come out to see me prior to me finding out I was pregnant. So me and my ex didn’t talk for a solid two months before he reached out and I wanted to be respectful and give him his space and time so he was ready to come to me. We have started to start communication again and it has been very good and we have expressed we both love eachother but a relationship so far apart isn’t going to work and we need to just be friends for now. It’s been now 4 months since seeing my ex. I truly love him..it’s not a physical love. It’s a true, genuine, lasting love. He said he wanted to be honest with me because he didn’t want what happened in the past to happen again so he told me he was talking to someone and I was heartbroken. He explained it wasn’t that serious and he wasn’t ready for a relationship but we can’t put our lives on hold waiting, which I agree. He told me he hasn’t met anyone equivalent to me and I haven’t either and obviously if we lived closer it would be different but we don’t. SO, I decided I’m going to fly out there next month with the intention of reconnecting and showing him how much I care. I’m not going to get back together..I just feel like I need to do this because he’s done it for me and also because I know our love was not a waste and I feel so strong about it. Can you guys please tell me what you think of my idea? If it’s true love wouldn’t you do the same? I also am a believer in what’s meant to be yours will be yours but if you seriously love the person, have the resources to go see them..why wouldn’t you? We are both Christian and have helped eachother a lot through our relationship with Christ and we have been very forgiving and understanding of eachother. Please tell me what you think.