I’m anxious to start playing sports again

When I was younger, I LOVED sports. I was on every team my school had! I sucked at them, but I loved playing. But, as I grew older, I became a lot more quiet than I had been and now I’ve become really shy. I quickly stopped playing all sports, and I haven’t tried any since 5th grade.

However, I’ve always wanted to try softball. The game was always really appealing to me! I just moved to a new school this year (I’m a junior in high school) and this semester my school is starting up softball. Three of my friends are joining the team, and I’ve been considering joining as well (my new school is really, really small, so there’s really not any try outs, you just join).

But I am SO anxious. I am barely active at all. I can only run for like eight seconds before I get tired. I can’t throw to save my life and I don’t know if I can even bat. And since I’m new and quiet, I’m scared people are gonna think I’m weird. I’m really conscious of making mistakes and I hate when people look at me. I’m most nervous about the running... I’m so worried about it for some reason...

I’m so, so nervous to try it, but I’m scared that if I don’t, I’ll miss out. Do you have any advice for me?

It starts tomorrow and I don’t know what to do... I’ve been in agony all day about this and it’s really debilitating. I can’t even get started on my homework.