Recent miscarriage

I just dont know how to feel. We tried for a year and we were so happy to find out we were pregnant with our 2nd baby. But by week 2 of know I started spotting that turned into bleeding. I went to the ER and my HCG levels were raising good....not great...by good....but I went 2 and a half weeks basically being on my period. Finally this last sunday I had massive cramps where I couldnt move. I was supposed to be 7 weeks pregnant. I laid down and tried letting it pass til I asked my husband to take me to the ER. I had been giving myself pep talks for weeks to be prepared for the worst since I didnt believe in it being normal that I was bleeding. I wasnt bleeding hard until I got into the triage and I bled onto the chair. They took me back to do ultrasounds and as they were pressing for the external it just hurt......I stood up to take off my bottoms for them to do the internal but I just felt a rush of blood and something massive slide out. I started crying because at that point I knew. I went to the bathroom and there was a giant clot and so much blood that was just everywhere. It was like a horror film playing out in front of me. Just so much blood. As I sat on the toilet I just felt blood rushing out and clots falling out. I had no idea what to do. They didnt do the internal so they just sent me back out to the waiting room where I waited for over an hour for a room. I spent so much time in the bathroom because I was just bleeding and losing clots. I felt like it was a nightmare and was confused why no one was helping me. My poor husband had no idea how to help me either. It's been a couple of days and somehow it feels like it never happened but i also dont know if its because i dont want to believe it happened. But it's like i still feel the pain from it. I feel empty.