i dont know if i should keep it👼

me and my boyfriend are 16. i might be pregnant right now, im taking a test tomorrow morning to tell for sure but im getting all the symptoms like sensitive nose, cramps, tender breasts, vivid dreams, nausea, peeing all the time, mood swings, MISSED PERIOD, ya know all that good stuff.

before i got pregnant i had talked to my boyfriend and i told him if it ever happened i would abort it but i’ve been thinking about it now that it actually might be a possibility and i dont know if i want to.

yesterday i was watching videos on youtube, storytimes of girls who got pregnant at 14, 15, 16, and how they hid it from their parents for a long time, almost the entire pregnancy. in the end of the video, every girl said that their baby was the best thing to ever happen to them and they dont regret it at all (i watched multiple videos). which really made me rethink my previous decision and made me think of what it would be like to have a child and how horrible i would feel if i terminated the pregnancy.

on the other hand, im only 16 and i can barely take care of myself, let alone another human being. my parents are also extremely strict and if they knew i’d even been having sex i’d be dead, let alone if they knew i was pregnant. they would never trust me again. and my highschool years would be taken away from me because i would have to take care of my baby. my entire life and future i had planned (like go to college and become a doctor) would change and i dont know if i could handle that.

sorry if it’s long, i really just need advice right now and i’d actually enjoy hearing your guys’ stories😌thank you!!