I wanna scream😓

March 2020 will be a full year of us trying with one miscarriage in September 2019. I go to the doctor Jan 31st just to make sure everything is still OK down there and to see what we should do next if we don’t conceive after March. Well I’m already out this month I know my cycle now since September and I spot a week before my period and well I spotted today and well I just know. It’s frustrating seeing others say they get pregnant right after a miscarriage and I’m thrilled for them and then I expect the same to happen to me.. nope not at all. I know everyone is different and it’s hard to be happy for others sometimes I know my time and ALL OF OUR TIME will come but damn... this sucks🙄😓 like I can’t even have fun with this anymore and they say don’t think about a baby when your having sex... sorry when I have sex and it gets near to the end and you know he’s gonna let it go all I can think about our little sperm cells swimming to try and find my egg🤷🏻‍♀️ TMI I know but I can’t NOT think about. Anyways my point is this shit ain’t easy ... rant over😅