So I’ve liked my friend for over a year now. Last year we never talked or anything but I still thought he was a cutie. I started working at the same job as him and we’ve became super close friends and now have a class together. Now I just like him so much more. We talk a lot and he’s so freaking sweet. He likes this girl and he’s been kinda down about her lately and I just can’t help but think of how much I could love him and hype him up!

He’s been going to the gym quite a bit recently and he’s noticed how his body is improving. For example his veins in his arms pop out a bit ( idk if that makes sense) and I’ve always found that superrr attractive. He kept flexing his arms last night and pointing it out and was so happy about himself and I kept melting.

Whenever he’s sad at work I have this habit of saying “you need a hug?” And usually he’ll say no I’m ok or something like that but here recently he’s been saying yes and letting me hug him. Last night at work he says “you give really short hugs” and I told him it’s because I feel awkward if I just latch onto him for a long time and he said “it’s okay if you wanna latch onto me and give me a long hug it’s fine, I don’t mind” 🥰 I’ve just been really happy around him lately and it sucks cause I know he doesn’t like me as anything more than a friend but a girl can dream.

I’m sorry I know this whole thing is annoying and probably doesn’t make sense but I really just wanted to tell somebody and get it out of my system. Thanks for coming to my TED talk.