Does anyone get themselves all worked up?

I'm due on between Thursday and sunday. I really wanna be pregnant but it's been 8 months and no luck so I know I wont be this month either but I find every month the 5 days leading up to my period I'm constantly checking to see if I'm bleeding and preying I'm pregnant seeking out signs then I'm heart broken when I come on.

It's so annoying i come on anywhere between day 25 and 28 as its 3 days of torture.

I'm now starting to get period pains so I know this month isnt the month and I've even taken the seven seas this month.

I'm due to see a gyno as I think I may have possibly endo. Just wish I could get pregnant 🙈