Pcos... not being able to even try to conceive

I am over my crazy erratic come and go as it pleases periods, and the damn doctors who act like it’s not important. I feel like I spend half of the year (give or take) having a period and the other half (give it take) not having a period.

I’ve been spotting off and on since September. One minute I feel like I need to rush to put a tampon in and the next I’m barley spotting. OR my favorite... taking a shower and then having to get back In because I’m having bad blood clots run down my leg. (tmi sorry)

Trying to conceive? That’s basically a joke. Hard to track when I’m ovulating when I’m off and on bleeding all of the time. It’s also really hard to have a sex life when every time my husband and I get in the mood I start bleeding... uncontrollably...

I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s uncomfortable, frustrating and down right depressing. And the doctors are seriously no help. I’ve been told to see a fertility expert and they are $600 just to examine.

I’m posting all of this just because I feel like I need to rant. When I go to a friend they feel for me, I know they do but it’s just the same advice and wishful thinking. I don’t wish this on anyone but if there’s anyone who is in the same boat... can we be friends? I’m over this $hit!