I need some reassurance 😫

I love breastfeeding. But right now I straight up hate it. My son is 5 months and ebf. Every breastfeeding session is a huge battle. It’s more than just fidgeting. He punches me, bites me, scratches me, let’s go and relatches 100 times -yanking my nipple each time, kicks, squirms, sucks his hands, etc. Before I have letdown, he is super angry and just flails himself all over the place and hits trying to get letdown to happy. Obviously, with him freaking out, then it gets delayed because I get stressed (or he hurts me with the pinching and scratching).

I’ve tried swaddling him and mittens but he fights harder then.

Then he only nurses for 5-6 minutes at a time, so it starts all over again in 1-2 hours. I started tracking how often I feed him and it’s between 15 and 20 times a day and night. If I had time to pump and bottle feed I’d do it right now.

I just need some reassurance that this is a phase and will pass soon. I’m tired of absolutely dreading every nursing session. Yesterday SO told me I should just stop when my son pinch/scratched me and broke skin. I ended up getting mad and putting him in the crib and walking away for a few minutes to decompress before I yelled at my baby who has no idea he’s doing anything wrong.

I am normally such a peaceful parent so this frustration makes me just want to bawl.