His ex wife's words are killing me..

My SO and I lost our daughter in pregnancy Easter 2019. Following that, I had an early miscarriage August and December.

I also nearly lost my 3 year old in a tragic accident.

His ex hates me. I've done nothing to her, she is just an absolutely awful person. She physically abused his daughter in there marriage (found out after the separation) and is a full blown narcissist. Their son gets dragged into so much of it and we tried to get more of him in court but, it is so hard to prove narcissism.

Any way,

He told her we would be at their sons bingo night at his school, during his court ordered visitation time, and she flipped out. She is a TA there and does not want me any where near the school. But, all our kids wants to go and we gave her all school year so far with me keeping space from the school but, we don't feel I should have to hold back any more.

Anyway, he remained polite as she flipped out. She told him she was going to tell their prek aged child that he was choosing me over him (because she wanted to go with him to bingo but wont be around me). He told her Hope's she truly knows she shouldn't say things like that to their son but, if she does that he knows their son knows he is loved by us. Then said good night and stopped opening messages.

Later on, he decided to open the <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.baby">parenting app</a> and this was one of the main things she said.

This struck me in my core. Without missing a beat, I just began to bawl. I cried about as hard as I did when I lost my Emilia.

Our TTC journey had been hard. My son's accident is still hard to get past. 2019...it was just awful.

There was nothing that warranted something so cruel.

I can't stop repeating "spending more time keeping her kids alive, she'd be able to give you a baby" over and over. It has been 3 days and I can't stop hearing them. This is not fair. I shouldn't be spending my emotional energy on these words but, I can't seem to control it. I started my TWW for this cycle a couple days ago and I can't even focus on my hope and potential joy because if at the end, I still have no positive...I know these words are going to ring even louder in my head.

All she has ever wanted in life since I started dating her ex is to make me miserable and she finally succeeded.

He invited her to join us which is why he said to let know if she changed her mind.