Feeling defeated

Falen

So back in sept I had a MMC at 7 weeks. When I thought I’d be going in to hear a heartbeat I just got news that the fetus stopped growing about a week prior. Healing from that wasn’t easy, but I was finally motivated to try again. Fast forward to yesterday and I get the most faint positive on a test. But I just feel like something is off. Took another today and it’s not getting any darker. I am almost positive this is a chemical now.

I’m just so frustrated, sad, angry. Any positive stories someone can share that have maybe been through similar situations? I can really use all the hope I can get right now.