I know it sounds silly and selfish, because there are so many others out there who have been TTC for much longer, but I’m still feeling the heartache and worry. This was cycle #1 for me and SO, and AF just arrived today. I got pregnant accidentally and with no issues when I was 16, but regretfully terminated the pregnancy. Two of my best friends are currently pregnant with #1, and conceived cycle #1 in their 30s. So I guess I was foolish in thinking I would have their luck. Now I’m going crazy worrying that if it wasn’t cycle 1, it won’t happen at all, because that’s what I deserve for terminating my first chance 17 years ago. Ugh sorry for the rant, but if anyone out there has any advice on how to stay calm and “let it happen” I’m all ears!