I’ve been a disfellowshipped Jehovah’s Witness for almost 2 yrs now and I feel desperate to be back with my spiritual family and truly happy again.

I am struggling with mental health and getting out of a very abusive relationship so just making the meetings is rare. At this pace, idk how I’ll ever renew my faith and love for Jehovah. It’s been so long, I feel like I have to start from the beginning but how can I fully return after the world has given me so many problems?

Begging for any loving Christian insight.. if any of my sisters are reading this, I’d love to hear your advice.