Marriage counseling

We need counseling. Its clear. Everytime I go to schedule I just picture it and it feels so awkward and I dont feel like my husband will actually talk despite his agreement to go. Or he will just make excuses the whole time and not actually say anything deep or real. I just feel silly and stupid. There hasnt been infidelity we just dont talk anymore. We argue a lot. We dont sleep in the same bed half the time. Idk what to do. He has a lying problem that has given me trust issues. (Nothing to do with women just about stupid things).Maybe I should go alone? At least at first so I feel better about it?