I thought I doing okay!!!.

Did our 2nd <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> with sperm donor last January the 7th. I really didn't get my hopes high and even didn't do any trigger shot testing. I just really divert my mind in my work and even I felt so relax. It was really hard not to get anxious but Yes I did. I told myself okay if it not this month it will be fine. And will try again. Here comes 14 days. I was 1 day late and waiting for couple more days to test. The next day AF showed herself. I was at work at that time. I felt like I'm lossing my mind at that moment but I still need to finished that day of work. I texted my husband and he replied He was also disappointed. I came hime so my husband and He asked me how am I feeling. I told him I'm okay. Couple of minutes later had my tears in my eyes. I eas trying to be string but I was so hurt and can't even stop thinking. I keep asking .y husband why is this happening to US! And I even asked him I need an explanation so atleast I can understand why!!!. I was so hurt that I wanna isolate myself from my friends. I don't wanna hear or I avoided to her the word "it will come" " in His time" " it takes time"etc. Now it's been more than a week I thought i recovered. But here I am crying again without no one to talk too. I'm scared to try again and get another BFN. Families and friends don't really understand my fears since they don't know that we're using sperm donor. I also spend all most of my saving with the <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>, sperm, and test. And It will takes a while again if we try since we need to save up for it again. I just couldn't pull myself up right now. I acted like I'm okay but deep inside I am broken.