I'll start by saying I'm 30, will be celebrating 5 years married to DH in March and have been TTC for about 2.5 years. Recently we have agreed to not stress it, at all, although we have never been one of those couple do. We don't have sex a million times during the window or try a bunch of different methods, we have never wanted to put a lot of stress on it. But I've gotten all the test to make sure my tubes are open and I ovulate correctly and we tend to always have sex at least 2-3 times during my fertile window so we would be ecstatic for that positive.

I was 4 days late..I'm pretty regular, almost always starting the day I'm scheduled to. A couple days ago my co worker told me I was glowing..and I had been feeling off and not exactly my usual "gonna start my period" symptoms. And a couple of my pups seemed extra attached and snuggly!

So I got my hope's up! What if these different feelings meant I was pregnant?!? I try hard to not go there because it's been 2.5 years of trying and I try to avoid that disappointing feeling..Ill wait until I'm at least 5 days late until I test. So the last couple days Ive been keeping my cool..while internally doing one of these...

And then yesterday my boobs started aching and I got realll irritable..and I knew she was coming...but this small part of me hoped that it could still be pregnancy symptoms and she wouldn't rear her ugly self..because I mean, apparently I was glowing.

But I guess maybe I was just in a good mood when I walked in my co workers office the other day because here I am..laying in bed, with awesome painful cramps and, thankfully, lots of puppy snuggles!

It sucks..I got my hopes up..when I try hard not to. And I can't fault my co worker for making the comment by any means, I know other people don't always realize how such an off hand comment can impact a woman who wants so bad to really be glowing.

But I'm gonna be thankful for my puppy snuggles and not lose hope..I know one day itll be my turn!

And here's a picture of our girls, just cause! 🐾💗