Anxiety panic attack and maybe bipolar?

Help I need advise! I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety and panic attacks for a long time now but I think I maybe be bipolar or have some sort of depression. I’ve really been not feeling like myself many nights I have cried myself to sleep sometimes because of nothing sometimes because someone said something to me and I over thought what it was about. Some days I feel like the whole world is out to get me and I just don’t know how I could keep going but then other days I feel fine. My moods have changed and I’ve been very short and irritable lately. Please tell me I’m not alone and if anyone has any advice. Also I hate doctors and medications. I’ve not had the best experiences with them.