I’m not quick to use the word depressed, but I have never felt this way before. It’s got nothing to do with watching my toddler. I’m just so sick of being here. I want to go shopping or something but it’s week two on biweekly pay and we really can’t afford to buy anything this week at all unless it’s a need. I don’t want to waste gas money. Hopefully getting out tomorrow for church and the weather being nice we may even go to the park to help with my feelings. My husband and I have gotten a lot done today and even had a friend come over for my toddler, but I can’t shake my empty feeling. I really want to go into labor (37 3/7) but I think mostly just to get out of here and have a change of scenery and pace.

I posted on here because I feel like all I have done is complain to everyone else and I don’t want to bother anyone. I just can’t get into my positive feelings at ALL.