So I had my baby boy on the 23rd of January. We’ve had so many problems since. Day 3 of him being home we ended up in hospital due to him not taking feeds very well and not keeping them down. Was only taking 10-15ml per feed and going 5 hours at a time until his next feed. The midwife who came out wasn’t too impressed about it as he was also very sleepy. We ended up with him having a feeding tube in to help him build up a bigger tolerance to his formula. We were sent home on the Sunday and was back in on the Monday night as he still couldn’t keep his feeds down and bought up green sick rather than his normal cottage cheese like sick. They ended up prescribing him Gaviscon and he managed to settle well taking larger amounts and keeping his feeds down. He’s now started getting in pain with his tummy everytime he tries to poo he’s straining and getting in a lot of pain and will only settle sleeping on my chest (only seems to be at night time). I’ve now reduced his gaviscon intake and he seems to be settling well and passing bowel movements a little easier as gaviscon can make them constipated. (He was taking every feed with gaviscon). I have serious mum guilt as I end up falling asleep with him on my chest!😣 I know it’s a bad thing and you aren’t supposed to have them sleep on your chest and you sleep at the same time but it’s the only way I’m getting sleep in the night and the only way he is also sleeping. The only problem is he’s going 4 hours without a feed and is still only taking just under 2oz of milk but during the day he’s waking up on time every 2 hours for his feed. He’s still being sick sometimes but no where near as much as he was before. I took him to see my doctor and he advised us to change from Cow and Gate to Aptamil. He’s taken to aptamil very well has only been sick twice since taking it. Has anyone else been through this before? Feel like I’ve done nothing but fail him since he’s been here. I feel like I should of known he wasn’t having enough milk and was underfed at the beginning of him being here and now the fact I can’t actually stay awake to keep him safe when he sleeps on my chest. My partner works away (wasn’t entitled to paternity) so I’m basically on my own in all of this. His mother is constantly saying ‘I need a break’ and wants to take him away from me for a couple nights so I can ‘get a good nights sleep’ but how will I ever learn and adapt to motherhood when she’s constantly nagging to have him. I appreciate all of her help and advise but the comments she makes all the time makes me feel like she doesn’t believe I can cope or get through this.

So sorry for the long winded post😣