My husband recently just told me that he has been smoking behind my back while i was pregnant in 2018 till 2019 and has since quit because of baby and it felt like a punch in my gut it felt like being cheated on, i feel betrayed honestly.

He said that he smokes because he’s stress and hid if from me for a year and during those times I smelled it and asked him if he smokes,but he lied to me again and again yet I trusted him with all my heart

And there are days that we stayed together and he cant wait for me to leave, such as ignoring me and stuff just so I would leave and he could smoke . After knowing the truth it seriously broke me. I cant stop thinking about it and it gives me anxiety so bad..

So it continued after baby’s born, whenever he comes home, he would go straight to the bathroom bathe and brush his teeth so I wouldn’t notice , sleep far away from me so I wouldn’t smell it and ask him as somehow I still could smell it even after he brush his teeth🤷🏻‍♀️

Also apparently the whole world knows about it except for me 🙂 my friends, my brother EVERYONE

AND IT HURTS because i am suppose to be the one sharing the stress with him yet he chose his smoking friends everyone but not me.

He would quit smoking for our child but never once thought about how i feel if he did what he did..

I’ve never ever felt so betrayed in my life honestly idk if i can ever truly trust him again

So update..i chance upon is search history as he had forgotten to delete, so not only did he lied about smoking he also look up on Instagram/ tumblr on sexy girls/busty girls search for their names and Instagram and delete the history after he finished his business?! During work too? Like wtf? Okay so we just had a baby like 10 months ago so like my body is just fat and ugly but like why do u have to hide about it? Im perfectly fine with him watching porn as he say that there is no way a guy could do without porn BUT THIS!! He was flapping to some woman for her face and body and thats just HONESTLY DISRESPECTFUL, DISGUSTING AND UNACCEPTABLE in my opinion? He even poke fun of people that are like this just for him to be one himself.. what a man..after 6 years of us being together, I finally saw his true colours