I have posted about my husband here before, this is the hardest thing I’m having to do. I love him so so deeply but i need to put that love towards myself and my toddler, plus our unborn baby. I’m done sticking up for him and making excuses for the things that he does... It’s just so hard. I want what’s best for him still, and I want the loving family I have always dreamt of, it’s so hard letting all of this go even thought I know doing so would make my son and I’s life so much happier. I feel guilty for my son,

A. Not doing this sooner,

B. Feeling like I’m making his father go away.

I’m asking y’all this morning if you’ve gone through this, what’s made it easier for you and your children? How was the process? I feel sick to my stomach feeling like I’m the one tearing our family apart. I’m so afraid for the day in the future that he will have our kiddos and I won’t be there to protect them. I’m so heartbroken, so undone, so afraid and I wish I knew what the future looked like.

It’s so hard letting go of our happy moments and the what could have beens.