Kind of sad

So I came here to vent and cry and feel sorry for myself for just a minute because I have to act like nothing is wrong or bothering me in front of everyone else. Within this last year, I have taken pregnancy tests three times. Got those two pink lines everyone hopes for. Initially shocked (wasn’t trying) and then shortly after accompanied by the worst possible cramps..Just this last week I had taken a test and almost instantly gotten those same two pink lines..shocked I took another and got the same result. 4 tests later I started to actually believe what I was seeing. Unfortunately, I woke up with excruciating cramping pain just like before. Worried, like many I went to the ER to be told nothing is wrong and that I’m indeed not pregnant. I was in denial..got home and took another test again and another brand because nobody can explain why I’m getting positives. Exact same tests they use at the hospital to again get a positive result. Then, another just to be sure only this time the line was much more faint..I was told wait a couple weeks and test again. Well 3 days of cramping and I start bleeding and no more positive results..I don’t know what to think at this point. It’s kind of hard to mourn the situation not knowing if I may have been pregnant and miscarried or if it’s just a fluke thing to be getting several positives with several different brands of tests. I really don’t know how to feel at the moment.