I desperately wish this could be the month I finally see two lines on a pregnancy test... (1 year 2 months TTC with my husband)

We did the deed on Saturday morning, the day before I got my fertile peak but...

Last night was the big night, the day before ovulation and I reached my fertile peak (confirmed with OPK). I had a super romantic evening planned for my husband and everything was going great, except just before he finished he pulled out.

He felt terrible and apologized a lot and we tried to do it again but I don't believe he finished. I couldn't help but immediately feel disappointed that my best chances are over for the month and since this journey is taking longer than I thought I feel like it's just never going to happen.

It's always hard for me to initiate sexy time after something semi awkward happens too. It's a long day at work today for the both of us. I will try to initiate again today, which is the day of ovulation, but we won't be able to until the late evening and my LH peak was yesterday afternoon.

I'm feeling close to hopeless and was wondering if there are any other stories out there like this? Does your husband ever space and pull out? I have such mixed feelings / insecurities about it and could really use hearing some positive stories about getting pregnant if you have sex two days before ovulation, day of ovulation or just anything to give me a little hope that it could still happen this month.

I feel so sad and alone.