I lost my virginity to this dude when I was 18.(21 now) I know the sex is bad. It occasionally feels good but most of the time it’s just lame. I was lonely and wanted company so I invited him over. Ugh I wish I hadn’t I regretted it as soon as he said he was on his way haha. The sex was not good. I wish I could find the sex I had with my ex husband in other people. It was so good. And I don’t think anyone can ever give it to me as good as he did. I want to be able to enjoy sex with others and not feel guilty or like shit about myself after because I got nothing out of it. The only thing I did like was the fact he would GRAB me. That’s it. Ugh I need the gross feeling to go away 🙄 but I also can’t hook up with randoms I have to have a connection before....