Hey ladies, so this post is probably going to be all over the place trying to get my thoughts together but bare with me because I just want to cry about it. 😭

I love my daughter with every ounce of my body she is my first, my husband and I have talked about a second one and we thought that's what we wanted, but last night we had friends come over for the Superbowl and they have a 2 month old and before I had my daughter I was baby fever crazy wanted to hold babies, snuggle them, change them, feed them, etc. But now I have my own and I didn't even want to hold their baby last night after mine even went to bed I didn't want to feed him, touch him, cuddle him, nothing. And when he cried I was just like do I really want to go through it again. My daughter is 1. I love the stage she is at. It just really made me ask myself how do I find room in my heart for another when I love her so much? How do i know I'll be okay with 2? How do I love another one when I wanted nothing to do with this baby last night or my sister's when she had hers? It's just so weird and this morning I took a test it was negative and I felt relieved honestly. Because I just don't know if im ready. 😭😭 Anyone with 2 go through these emotions before deciding and having their second?