Why ? Why me ? Why can’t I get pregnant? I see so many girls in the streets that are all sprung out on drugs popping kids out left and right that they don’t even want and end up putting them in the system . Were there is woman that are going through heart break after heartbreak pain & tears to just get that BFP 😭😭 I would do anything to be a mom I’m 26 years old my SO is 35 we have been ttc for 4-5years now and haven’t had any luck I got checked out I’m healthy nothing wrong with me he has his appointment this Thursday . I just hope we get answers 😭😭 ..

Yesterday 2-2-2020 I was 5 days late on my period , I’m never late have regular cycles , so when no AF came i was so excited , even tho I should have paid attention to the first and obvious sign that I wasn’t pregnant with the 3 negative tests that I took , but I was just so full of hope .i kept praying to GOD rubbing my belly asking him to please bless my baby ... I couldn’t keep it to my self any more I txt my mom i told her what’s going on , she was excited , she told me to tell my SO , but I said I didn’t want to cuz what if I’m not , well I got even more excited talking to her about it , so I decided to tell my SO he was so happy he started crying 😭 😭 2 hrs later. We get home I went to go pee and what’s there waiting for me 😭😭😭😭 AF ! 💔💔💔😭😭😭 i feel like such a failure 😭😭 all my SO and I want so badly is start are family ! I never New it would be so hard to conceive 😊