Please be kind and also give advice :)

So my partner (20) and I (18) are currently trying for baby #1 after I had a misscarriage in November and were unsure what we wanted at the time but I went through a blitz of depression and guilt about it and we decided to start trying again. We have a steady income and looking are to move out soon and be more independent. I know a child is a HUGE change to someone’s life, but since the misscarriage there’s nothing cheering me up more than the thought of another chance. We’re both somewhat young, does it make us bad people for wanting something so time consuming and that’s going to be so difficult but also amazing and make us happy? I keep trying to tell myself everything happens for a reason, but could it be that I’d have been a bad mother anyway? All those kinds of things are running through my head 24/7. Should we take this opportunity next week when we ovulate to try again If the grieving period is over and we’re willing to try again?😫please be kind in the comments, I know we’re ‘still young’