Breast milk supply anxiety

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People are going to read this and call me crazy but when I’m breastfeeding my self worth is wrapped up in milk production.

Starting Jan. 12 I got a stomach virus that lasted 8 days. I vomited for 36 hours, wasn’t able to eat more than a nibble of a cracker/ice chips/popsicles for another 48 hours, and held a fever until day 8. It took another 7 days to fully recover.

The day after the vomiting ended I lost my supply in total. Couldn’t even hand express a dribble. I have been working to build it back since. Today is the first day I’ve pumped more than an oz.

While I was sick we obviously used my stash when I wasn’t able to nurse (about the first 12 hours of vomiting).

I work as a college professor and am gone for class 2 nights a week. She goes through roughly two 4oz bottles per night. I have roughly 1000oz stored up yet, and am back to putting one to two 6oz bags in the freezer daily. But daily I find myself nervous/obsessing over how many oz I can pump per session (opposite side from when she nurses).

Anybody else able to identify or am I crazy?