So I got home from work, all 3 kiddos in bed along with my fiance.. got all excited to get some much needed snuggles to find him watching porn and masturbating in our bed. Stunned, I automatically backed out and closed the door.

I never used to mind porn.. hell, I LOVED it at one point && such til my oldest sons father rejected me time after time and would use it to masturbate behind my back. He did this for A LONGGGG time.

In doing so.. it makes me feel soooo insecure about myself and feel like I'm not good/sexy enough. It doesn't exactly help that I have PPD and anxiety on top of that.

My fiance hasn't always been faithful in our relationship(he cheated multiple times but hasn't for almost a year) so that doesn't necessarily help with how I'm feeling right now.

I'm just so pissed and hurt given that he is well aware of my past && how it makes me feel.

Instead of the usual "Hey, baby. How was work? I missed you." I got, "I thought you weren't supposed to be home for another hour..."

Like I don't even want him touching me right now. Am I overreacting or?