Am I a sociopath?
My husband has told me numerous times that he is disappointed because I never compliment him and he’s not over reacting. I NEVER compliment anyone. Ever. Doesn’t mean I don’t get these thoughts. My husband may get a haircut or I might get a glimpse of him in a moment where he looks absolutely handsome and yet it doesn’t occur to me that I should probably tell him that. When people ask me if their dress looks good (my sister for example) someone I would feel comfortable talking to about almost anything I lie. I can’t be honest and tell her no it doesn’t. The only time I genuinely complimented her or told her a dress looked good was while she was shopping for a wedding dress. I feel my compliments wouldn’t sound genuine. This is the same with me apologizing sometimes. Sometimes I truly feel sorry for what I’ve done and when it comes out, it doesn’t sound genuine at all. So my husband just glosses Over it and thinks I’m psycho and I have no remorse. My husband lives for praise, words of affirmation, or compliments. He thrives if you build him up. Growing up my parents never did that for us. So I guess I was never truly comfortable vocalizing my emotions or opinions. I feel like a crazy person. Another thing, my husband is in the military and he supports me and our two kids and I’m so proud of him and I want to tell him but I am so anxious that it will come out sounding like it’s not genuine and from my heart. He thinks I have no emotion and I don’t show it but on the inside I feel I have so much emotion it scares me and I can’t express it or put it into words if that makes sense. I feel like a feral cat that can’t act civilized so I just keep my feelings in. Has anyone felt this way?
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