depressed

i know i need to go to therapy or something. but i’ve been so sad, loss of interest in everything, sleeping excessively, eating less, i can’t even bring myself to shower or hang out with friends anymore and i blame it on this tiny little baby, and that makes me feel worse. i feel like i’m not going to be enough (single parent). i want this to be a joyful time in my life but i’m just so sad. my mind weighs heavy on abortion but i know that’s not what i want at all i just want things to be easier. i honestly just don’t wanna do anything but lay in bed and die. i just needed to get my feelings out there. i feel like i’m going crazy in my head having everything bottled in.