So I suffered a miscarriage back in September...according to my last period it was determined I was 8 weeks along. The doctor suggested we have an ultrasound to be sure how far.. to only find out there was no heartbeat. We went from being over the moon happy to soul shockingly devastated.

Once everything passed and I got back on schedule with my periods.. we’ve been trying.. I check my Lh levels and bd according to my ovulation with no success..

This holiday season has been torturous for me with seeing so many family and friends announcing their pregnancies and I can’t help but feel so damn angry.. at myself, at everyone. I truly am happy for them but it only makes me want another child.. I have a 10 year old daughter who keeps saying she wants a sibling and the fact that I have not been able to give that to her hurts..

I just really hope we are able to conceive naturally. But I had to vent about how I feel.. I don’t want to feel so angry and lost but I truly can’t help it.. ugh. Wish me luck in keeping my head up and to be positive through this whole process...