To start off I’m not sure where this should go! I am ttc with pcos! 29 been trying for many many years!!! Well I’m all my friends go to person for a labor and pregnancy buddy!! Sure why not! It kills me but in the end those adorable tiny humans make it all so worth it!!! Well this time is different! My best friend is have a baby and said baby has a heart condition! I am going to be by her side the entire time! Could be upwards to 2 months! This one is hitting way different. I don’t know how to feel or process my feelings. I don’t wanna show them I feel any type of way because I am there support threw all of this! I would feel extremely selfish to fee any way about it out loud! There are sooooo many things we have to go threw for this amazing little baby and the odds are stacked on him! But if it turns the other way I’d feel horrible if I told them I was anything but there entire support system!!! I guess I’m the end of all this it really hurts my heart but I’m extremely greatful this tiny child gets a chance at life!! Tomorrow is her last ob appt then it’s baby time!!!!