I have no fucking idea where to post this.

I just looked at my boyfriends internet history (awful thing to do, I know, it’s a bad habit from previous relationships). I want to break the habit of mistrusting my partner/invading their privacy/assuming the worst.... But every time I look, I find something AWFUL that reinforces this behavior.

Today I found lots of hentai porn, all of it in categories of “prepubescent incest rape forced pregnancy”.

Like no fucking joke, those were his exact search words.

I also saw that he downloaded Tinder this morning while sitting right next to me.

I’m so confused and disgusted. He’s such an angel on the outside - cute, funny, kind, dorky, very smart, successful, solid military career... He’s the last person I’d ever suspect of this shit.

I don’t know what to do yet, last month I literally just moved in with him from across the states...

Just needed to get that out. I know I’ll be expected to leave him and whatever but right now the shock of what I found is way too much to process. Like what the FUCK did I just find. 😞