The guy i have been dating for 5 months told me that he decided to have other relationship (serious, commited, leading to marriage relationship) with one of the girl backhome (she is in Nigeria, meanwhile me and him its in Asia). He told me its up to me what i want to do. First, I just want to end things as i do not want to keep the relationship going meanwhile maybe one day he will told me that its time for him to go back home and marry her (its like a time bomb).

But after went sleepless weeks, I just think i can not do it. I feel great connection and feel happy when i am with him, like i never feel with anyone before. So i start to think doing this polyamory relationship but somehow i also feel i am an idiot to be the second options.

Help! (oh on side notes, i am planning to date and meet other guy as well, as i am aware i would not have future with this guy, but for the moment i do not have anybody so i also think i can just waste my time with him) 🙈🙈 but also scared i will just keep loving him more and more. Thoughts?