Need to Vent

Took apart my first response after I had gotten my faint cause my husband was yelling at me saying that I’m seeing things and why do I keep doing this to myself . He really made me feel shitty and turned around and said I didn’t care about his feelings, when I’m always trying to cater to his needs. My blood test at 9dpo came back negative so I’m starting to think I’m out this month. All other test are negative as well . Let me know if you ladies see what I see. Maybe i am going crazy, but when you truly want something so bad, it’s hard not to. It’s hard not to feel sad and defeated, I know there’s always next time.