I’m having a shitty week.

On Wednesday, one of my former best friends told me that she hopes I die while giving birth and that she bets my baby hates me in the womb. I did nothing besides trying to help her not get a warrant out for her arrest and that is what I got in return.

Today, I had my annual review at work. Since October, I have been cut down on work because I was making errors and not comprehending things at work. The reason for this was because I stopped taking my ADHD medication because I found out I was pregnant. The reason I stopped taking these is because it can affect the baby’s heart. He already has an EIF which has something to do with his heart so I did not want to risk the health of my baby. Today in the review, my boss said some really shady stuff about my work and how other people have had to take over some of my responsibilities since they cut me back on work. I understand that I need to hear these things and they have to do an annual review but I am a bit mad about how it was worded:

To top off this week, I mentioned to my boyfriend that I might look into getting a different job once I come back from leave and he told me to make sure that I had a job set in stone before I do (which obviously I would do) and then I told him that why does it matter if I change my carrier when he doesn’t even have one yet. Then he told me that “I can make you cry real fast” and “At least I found my own job and didn’t have mine basically handed to me by my parents”.

I am just having a really shitty week and I have been crying since I came back from work. Hearing these mean things from people are really bringing me down.