I’m almost 12weeks. First time mom. We’ve been ttc for 6 months before I actually conceived, I had a chemical last year and I was so heartbroken and I would not give up until I conceived. This will sound cold, but I have to vent my feelings and women on here are so experienced (most) and I found this app to be my comfort spot. Anyway, I’m not sure if it’s because I’m so early? But I feel no connection with my baby. Even when I found out. It was such a cold moment. My boyfriend was happy. Everyone around me was more happy than me. Again, I was trying to have a baby. I wanted this. But why don’t a feel anything? Why don’t I feel excitement? Why aren’t I keeping up with my dr. apts. I never keep up with my baby’s size and growth on an app like I imagined. It’s like it’s not there. The people around me are more excited than me, they even ask why do I seem so casual and..not happy. Before I found out, I imagined myself on the <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.baby">baby app</a> everyday, keeping up with its growth, its organs, feet and toes. Eating super healthy. Taking vitamins to ensure my baby has all the nutrients it needs. Lifting up my shirt in the mirror every day to see if my tummy’s grown. Thinking of names. Thinking of nursery ideas (I love to decorate) Gushing about my baby 24/7. The tiny live I’m carrying inside my body. I WANT to love my baby! I hope I don’t feel this way when it’s born. Regardless, I’ll take care of my baby and be a great mom best to my ability. I’m just sad. Sad and scared.