8 years of acne. I hate myself. And my skin.

So I have posted on separate posts two different times about my skin. I am posting pictures of how my skin looks and has looked for over 8 years. And it is only getting worse. It seems like I thought it was getting better, but I guess not. Usually when I leave it alone for days and days and not pop any pimples or pick out anything. Then my skin starts to clear up, but then it creates so many blackheads that it bothers me a lot. Because people always Point them out. :-( I'm not really asking for anybody to tell me different topical ideas. I'm just here to share. Anybody out there in the same situation I am I'm only seventeen at the same time...