So I was at a point of dating guys back to back. I’ve been like this since January of last year. Dating them and never having it go anywhere for whatever reason it may be. Something happened with a guy recently where he’s not ready for a relationship even though he likes me.

I’m assuming that I need to be done and not reach out.

This is the first time I am actually alone alone. I’m so desperate to be with someone because I haven’t been alone in a long long time. I’m tempted to reach out to that guy. I’ve talked to my emotionally manipulative ex. I’ve questioned my self worth and confidence. As if I’m not beautiful or deserving of love because I give so much in every interaction.

I know I’m good enough. I feel like I have to have some type of companion cause I’ve only been in two somewhat serious relationships but not long term. I want that love and in love interaction and I feel like I won’t ever get it.

I know I need to be alone and let it come to me

I just want to know how I can be happy alone and not dwell on the most recent guy. How can I be happy alone and do what I need to do?

I’ve been crying this whole last week and I just feel like giving up on everything.