Feeling discouraged

Aubrie

TTC for last two years. I have a 4 year old son and thanks to my pcos it took over a year to conceive him and then we were successful after 2 rounds of clomid. Last year we did 3 more rounds of clomid to no avail so we took a break. I decided to take control of my health and had weight loss surgery and I have lost over 100 lbs. My pcos symptoms were almost gone, my periods returned to normal and we felt like it was a perfect time to resume trying. This is our first month getting back in the saddle with opks and preseed and all that and we were feeling so excited and hopeful! I'm 12dpo with af due in two days and broke down and tested. For what feels like the 100th time BFN. I know I'm not out but I'm feeling like that's not the best sign and I'm so bummed ☹